WIINCH3STER

Some of you guys may know about my dog, Abe.
My sweetheart, goof of a dog that meant the world to me and I would do anything for.
He was my dog, my baby, my world.

His health went downhill pretty quickly.
He went to the vet for a problem in his front leg but ended up having a seizure that he just didn't quite recover from. He could stand, he was in constant pain even with pain killers.
I had to do the heartbreaking decision of not letting him suffer anymore since he just didn't have the same quality of life as he did before.

It broke my heart. Abe was my baby. He helped me through everything and kept me going when I just wanted to give up. He meant the world to me. He cheered me up when I was down and got excited about ANYTHING and would just get excited easily. He always wagged his tail and give me kisses and wanted cuddles and followed me everywhere. We would watch TV together and I'd feed him snacks and he even got to drink from my cup (he would promptly get the rest of my drink and I'd get a new cup). He was spoiled rotten and he knew it. I knew it. He got a soft bed, he got blankets, he got pillows, he got to come in and out of my room as much as he wanted. I would comfort him when he was upset or scared or nervous and he would help me stay calm when I needed him.
He even got to curl up in the center of my bed when I got my new mattress even when I couldn't get comfortable. He was comfortable, that was all that mattered. He crawled under my desk when he was scared, the big lab that he was, and I would put a blanket on him for added security.
When we went to visit my grandmother, after our other dog got lose (we got him back, the idiot), he stayed in my room and slept on the bed with me.

Even when he was in pain and couldn't move, he was wagging his tail and just wanted to crawl into my lap and cuddle.

He isn't in pain. He is with his brother Juju.

I miss him. I miss him barking whenever someone came home and when the doorbell rang. I miss him barking when he heard a doorbell on the TV. I miss him wagging his tail every time I looked at him. I miss him laying at my door until I let him in only to want to leave five minutes later. I miss him laying his head on my keyboard when he needed something or just wanted attention.

I feel so loss without him.

I'm sorry if I seem kinda ghosty today. Or well for a while I guess.